I am happy this week is over. And not in the way I am normally happy because I get to spend more time with my family on weekends. This has been a really weird week. I had a long time internet friend randomly cut me off on Twitter and FB. When I emailed her about whether it was on purpose I got a non-responsive response. Judging by a post on her blog since then I am guessing it was on purpose. I know I shouldn't care because the whole thing speaks to the real depth of our connection but it bothers me because I don't know why. My staff has been snippy and needy and unable to perform simple tasks this week without a lot hand holding and guidance. Stakeholder feedback has been unusually negative. I can't seem to find the law that says state employees do not deserve respect or courtesy. Harper had a weird, less than one day, pukey fever thing just long enough to cancel date night. Date night was rescheduled but when we tried to go to one of our favorite places it was uncharacteristically busy and we had to wolf down our meal to make it to the movie. You do not want to wolf down Mexican, it does not end well. And it seems like many of my friends are having the same kind of tough week.

And yet still I can not help but feel happy. Because when you look at everything from a different angle I get a whole other spin. I have many lovely internet and real life friends who I continue to correspond with to this day. My staff although periodically high maintenance continue to show up for work every day despite the tremendous amount of stress due to impending layoffs and general chopping away of all the benefits that would even make someone want to work for the state. And they love what they do and we do good work here. And really the majority of stakeholder feedback is supportive and gracious and wonderful. And I would really rather be home with my child if he needs us than anywhere else in the world. And I said to Jeff last night we might be standing for a table for over a half an hour and speeding through dinner but at least we are together...without kids! And the movie Sunshine Cleaners was really excellent. And at the risk of sounding dramatic may have changed my life just a bit as there were a few similarities to my life that hit home.