Saturday was Tom's funeral in his hometown in PA. I could not be there. But according to Barb it was very nice and very meaningful for his family. I think the first week after his funeral here was a lull for me. I am back to thinking about him more and more. It could also be because I went by his house again. I picked up some things for Keegan I promised him from his daddy's house and some more things for the dogs. I went farther than the garage this time. But even the garage is full of memories. Camping equipment and his snowboards, even his boots. Eleven years together holds alot of mental snapshots.
"In the course of twenty crowded years one parts with many illusions. I did not wish to lose the early ones. Some memories are realities, and some are better than anything that can ever happen again."
Willa Cather
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I'm sure those memories will always creep in at times. I don't know if it ever gets easier...I imagine it does, but I've never been through it so I can't say and since we are all different, we will all cope and deal with loss in different ways. Hang in there hon *hugs*
My heart just lurches for you trying to imagine the course of emotions that go through you as you face each day. I agree that you have to look forward to the happy times coming up like the wedding. I'm sure that Tom would want that also.
The memories will creep in...take them as they come and share as much as you can with Keegan. His dad will live on through those memories.
Darling, I love you. I was having dinner with my Mom and again, we were talking about you. I told her, "Mom, Tom will never go unforgotten in Alisa's home. Ever." That is beautiful, and so are you. Give Keegan a hug for me.