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Alisa. 37. New Hampshire. Married for almost three years to this wonderful, funny, smart guy. Previously married. Went through in-vitro fertilization to have my five year old magical son Keegan. Stepmother to the charming Isabelle (6). Gushingly in love with our baby boy Harper(1). Policy Wonk and dreaded bureaucrat. Lover of fine cuisine, honeybees, truly romantic moments and the underdog.
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Curried Beef Short Ribs

Note: I found this was more realistically four servings.

Finishing this dish with lime zest and juice brightens its rich flavors.

Yield 6 servings (serving size: about 3 ounces ribs, 2/3 cup rice, and about 2 1/2 tablespoons sauce)

2 teaspoons canola oil
2 pounds ...continue reading

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Waiting To Exhale

Maybe it is the dreary weather but I am having a down day. Well, really a down couple of days. It might have to do with other things too. I know I said that I wasn't going to worry about being alone and needing someone else. But I think it is human nature to want to be loved. I think I also need to be validated that I am still an attractive person. I am the first person to tell you that my goal is to lose weight and feel better physically. But I wonder if I have attractive qualities besides body stuff. I know my friends and family love me, but well that's not exactly the answer I am seeking. And I don't know if I am seeking it really. It would just be nice if it didn't feel like the world was full of happy couples. And those who aren't coupled are shopping for younger, thinner, non-mommy types. My stupid self-esteem takes a day off now and then.
I miss it. I miss the connection. I miss the kisses, etc. I miss knowing that someone feels about you the way you feel about them. I miss surprises, plans and dreaming together. I miss "us against the world." I miss someone other than my mom telling me I'm beautiful.
This is not a solicitation.

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