Maybe it is the dreary weather but I am having a down day. Well, really a down couple of days. It might have to do with other things too. I know I said that I wasn't going to worry about being alone and needing someone else. But I think it is human nature to want to be loved. I think I also need to be validated that I am still an attractive person. I am the first person to tell you that my goal is to lose weight and feel better physically. But I wonder if I have attractive qualities besides body stuff. I know my friends and family love me, but well that's not exactly the answer I am seeking. And I don't know if I am seeking it really. It would just be nice if it didn't feel like the world was full of happy couples. And those who aren't coupled are shopping for younger, thinner, non-mommy types. My stupid self-esteem takes a day off now and then.
I miss it. I miss the connection. I miss the kisses, etc. I miss knowing that someone feels about you the way you feel about them. I miss surprises, plans and dreaming together. I miss "us against the world." I miss someone other than my mom telling me I'm beautiful.
This is not a solicitation.
Alisa. 37. New Hampshire. Married for almost three years to this wonderful, funny, smart guy. Previously married. Went through in-vitro fertilization to have my five year old magical son Keegan. Stepmother to the charming Isabelle (6). Gushingly in love with our baby boy Harper(1). Policy Wonk and dreaded bureaucrat. Lover of fine cuisine, honeybees, truly romantic moments and the underdog.
Curried Beef Short Ribs
Note: I found this was more realistically four servings.
Finishing this dish with lime zest and juice brightens its rich flavors.
Yield 6 servings (serving size: about 3 ounces ribs, 2/3 cup rice, and about 2 1/2 tablespoons sauce)
2 teaspoons canola oil
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Harper Stats
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Oh God, Book One
Peep Peep
Kissiversary 2009
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Curried Beef Short Ribs
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Harper Stats
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Peep Peep
Kissiversary 2009
The Puzzle
Curried Beef Short Ribs
Black Bean-Taco Salad with Lime Vinaigrette
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and even though it isn't a solicitation, i am going to tell you that you're beautiful anyway. :) and i've seen you in person! and i would imagine that those closest to you would tell you that you're even more beautiful with keegan in your arms. xoxo
You know I that it wasn't so long ago that I felt all those feelings. Trust me when I say you will feel the us again only this time it will be the guy that will be part of your us forever.
HUGS!!
You know, sometimes I get so angry at the person that is responsible for making you, this great, wonderful, beautiful (both out and in) friend of mine question these things that I really want to let out a piece of my mind. Instead, I just hope that perhaps this gets read by that individual, and perhaps, just a little, a touch of guilt and remorse creeps in. That's all I'll say - that and to me the consideration, thoughtfulness, empathy, support, love, etc. that a beautiful person shows just from being that way makes you look like a Cindy Crawford/Elle McPherson blend to me!