Today has been a tough day. There is no joy in it being Friday for me. Keegan had an unexplainably fussy night so I didn't get much solid sleep. I keep thinking I will eventually get use to it but I haven't yet. I woke up with a huge migraine. Keegan shrieked intermittently all morning as I tried to get us ready for our day. I dropped him at daycare where he instantly became smiley and lovey to everyone but me. What's up with that? I try not to take it personally, but it makes me wonder. Thank goodness for the free coffee this morning during my contracts training or I would be even worse off. The pain killers have taken the edge off the headache but I still feel weird. And it would be great if I could hear in my left ear. It has been over a week of that and this hacking cough. I'm tired. I am finding it hard to make decisions and gather energy to do all of things I must. I must keep planning my life. I must figure out how I am going to live without my marriage. I have to keep doing all the regular life things too. I need to figure how to stop thinking of things that make me want to burst into tears in public.

PS Nevermind the 450 comment spam I got hit with last night.