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Alisa. 37. New Hampshire. Married for two years to this wonderful, funny, smart guy. Previously married. Went through in-vitro fertilization to have my four and a half year old magical son Keegan. Stepmother to the charming Isabelle (5). Gushingly in love with our baby boy Harper(born June 10). Policy Wonk and dreaded bureaucrat. Lover of fine cuisine, honeybees, truly romantic moments and the underdog.
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Smoke's Chili

Yield 12 servings (serving size: 1 cup chili, 1 tablespoon sour cream, and 1 tablespoon cheese)

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2 teaspoons vegetable oil, divided
3 1/2 pounds lean, boned chuck roast, cut into 1/2-inch pieces
3 cups chopped green bell pepper
1 1/2 cups chopped...continue reading

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Implosion

You ever start a conversation with someone you just know isn't going to end well? But the issue has been between you for several weeks. And frankly I'm not the kind of person who can continue on and ignore things. I say get it out and over with. So I did. And it didn't end well. So my refuge is crying in front of the keyboard reading other people's blogs. I just wish I hadn't done it at midnight when I really need to be sleeping.

And I really start to resent anything that interferes with how I should be feeling at this time. The other 90% of my pregnancy is total joy and anticipation.

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*hugs* hope the rest of the day went better... i'm more of an avoid-confrontation-at-all-costs kind of person even if your-insides-get-all-twisted-and-that-thing-just-festers-inside by default, but I've tried to be better at putting things out there. You did the right thing, at least you put it out there. Good for you!

Shared by at January 12, 2004 5:17 PM

*hugs* hope the rest of the day went better... i'm more of an avoid-confrontation-at-all-costs kind of person even if your-insides-get-all-twisted-and-that-thing-just-festers-inside by default, but I've tried to be better at putting things out there. You did the right thing, at least you put it out there. Good for you!

Shared by miss dragonfly at January 12, 2004 5:18 PM

aww, hugs to you, Alisa! I do know exactly how you're feeling.

Shared by liz at January 13, 2004 7:21 AM

Cyber hugs aren't as good as the really thing, but I'm sending them to you anyway. I hope that you feel better sweetie. You are such a wonderful person.

Shared by Jennah at January 13, 2004 1:49 PM









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