Hi there.
I've been quiet trying to take some space from the world. Unfortunately Christmas was not what I hoped or planned. But life is like that sometimes. I need to remember that how I feel is up to me not other people. It's easy to blame pregnancy hormones for my moods. But I forgot for a little while there who I am. I forgot to trust myself and my heart. I gave people the power to make me feel bad. There is a time I would never have done that. I'm taking it back. I know what is true and right for me. I know what I want for my delivery and for this baby. I cannot control how other people feel.
He is healthy, I'm healthy. I have a loving and supportive husband. I have a family of both origin and choice who love and support me. The rest is just details.
PS I feel like Stuart Smalley (SNL): Look in the mirror and say, "I'm good enough, I'm smart enough. And gosh darn it, people like me."
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I don't know everything going on but I surely know how it is when other people, especially family, make you feel bad for your choices, you wants, your hopes for your experiance with the baby and names. Don't give in to pressure. Sometimes we have to make compromises for what is healthy for the baby but no one should make us feel bad about what we choose to do. I'm sure none of this makes any sense since I have no idea what is going on with you but I hope it helps to know that I know how you feel about not wanting to give people permission to make you feel cruddy. You are doing great hon. *hugs*
lemme at 'em. grrrr.
love you. miss you.
I feel your pain. Sadly, you must take the power back now because it only gets worse once the baby gets here. It's such a trying time and you will doubt yourself at every turn (every mother does!) You don't need anyone else having power over your thoughts, decisions and feelings.
Hugs. This is such a trying and emotional time. Hang in there!
It's funny...if I look back at my archives around the same part of my pregnancy as you are in now....I was having the same feelings. Sometimes other people just suck...and we need to be able to step back and say...Fuck them. :) Love you!