Damn. I was really hoping to go to bed earlier. But once again I am not sleepy. My mind races too much. I had a really interesting IM conversation with a friend earlier. About the past and the future and how we can fight the inevitable, the expected. By questioning every choice, every option. By thinking and staying in the practice of thinking. My worst fear is to be ordinary. Boring. Stereotypical. Your nondescript family portrait. As much as I want the husband, house, garden, dogs and kids. I don't want to stop growing as a person. Developing as an individual. Challenging myself. Being challenged by others.
So I think and I search and I read. I read other people's writings and see their lives. And look for them to teach me. The how of living a thoughtful, examined life.

PS My mindset continues to make me think of relationships. So I decided to post this & more recently write this.